Regrets (Do better, Part V)

The view of the sunrise at 5:35 am was exactly what I needed right now. As the sun warmed the city with it’s rays, I tried to catch my breath after finishing up my hike. I took a seat down on the ground, and tightened up my ponytail. Deep breaths..deep breaths, as I told myself. I closed my eyes and took in the moment I had to myself.

As I opened my eyes, the sun was almost fully up. And I remembered the time Tristian and I came up here when I officially became his girlfriend.

*Flashback occurs*

“Jasmine, I got something for you when I went to Cali to visit my mom”

“Reallyyy….hmm, look at you being all sweet!”

Tristian takes off his baby blue backpack, lays it on his lap and unzips it. He peeks in it, and stuffs half his arm in his backpack, digging in. “Dang, that big huh? That you have to use all your energy to take it out?” I said as I giggle. “Shut up” as Tristian squints his eyes at me to my response. 

“Aha!” He pulls out a white small box with a gold thin lace tied in a bow. Tristian hands me the box with a smile on his face. I look at him with a curious expression as I take the box from him. As I open it, he points to the box. “My mom helped me out with this one. I figured she’s better at shopping than I am.”

I gasp softly. It was a beautiful silver bracelet with small diamond cuts all around it. And in the middle, it had my birthstone. “It’s beautiful…you really didn’t have to spend SO much money on me Tristian!! I told you not to.”

“But I wanted to Jas..please ..have this gift.” He said as he gently grabbed the bracelet and put it on my wrist. “Okay” I said quietly as I smiled at him trying to put it on me. Tristian looked up at me with his hazel eyes smiling – “Please have me too..as your boyfriend?…and you, as my girlfriend?”

“Really??” I said as my eyes lit up. “Really.” He said, as he kissed the back of my hand where he put the bracelet on. “How could I say no?” I smile as I grab to –

“Great view huh?”

I jump to the sound of a deep male voice and remembered where I was. I slid off my butt in shock to turn around to a man behind me.

He was tall, with broad shoulders, and a hat on. He had a black fitted t-shirt on with Nike written on it, and some black basketball shorts on. He ran over to grab me as I fell. “Oh shit! I didn’t mean to scare you. I am so sorry ma’am!!”

As I stand up, I wipe the dirt off of my butt and legs. “No..no it’s okay. I should have been more aware of my surroundings.” I looked up and took a long double take at him. He had tan skin, with strong facial features. Strong jaw line that fit well with his scruffy dark black beard. Long yet strong nose, and high cheekbones, light brown eyes that glistened from the sun’s reflection on them making them even more beautiful than they already were. He smiled at me, and oh goodness, his smile was hotter than his eyes. “Are you okay?”

“Uhhh..yeah! I’m fine. You’re fine. I mean, you’re not fine fine. I meant to say like you’re fine as it’s okay to scare me. I mean it isn’t okay to scare me but -”

He laughed. “I get it..I get it. ”

Oh my goodness. I had just made a fool out of myself…

“I’m Jacob” as he puts his hand out in front of me. I take it and feel his rough large palm against my small soft hand. “Jasmine” as I smile and look at him.

He chuckles as he looks down, then looks back up at me as he lets go of my hand. He pointed backwards towards the trail. “I was doing a run and saw you sitting here watching the view. So I thought I would go ahead and make a comment. And instead I scare you. Way to make a good impression huh?”

I softly laugh and sit down. I look up at him standing and staring down at me with a half smile. I smile back and pat on the ground next to me. Jacob slowly sits down and stares out in the sun that has come up. “Nah, you’re fine. If anything, I totally made a great impression by falling WHILE I’m sitting. How does anyone even manage to do that??”

He laughed. “Well, I’ll have to say, I’ll probably always remember that about you now.”

Great. How awkward.

“It was cute though. It made me laugh. I needed that.” He said as he turns back over to me. I look at him and for a second, we just look at each other in each other’s eyes. I could feel the connection, the energy that was pulling us together. I break away my eyes from him. “Glad I can make a stranger laugh. Do you come up here often?”

“Well I just moved here not too long ago from the midwest area. I heard about this trail, so I decided to try it out a couple weeks ago, and well..I’ve been trying to go at least 2 or 3 times a week when I’m not busy with work.” I nodd to his answer.  He continues after my nodd. “What about you Jasmine? Do you come up here often?”

“Yeah..here and there. I used to more often in the past then recently.” I switch from criss crossing to hugging my knees. “It’s a good getaway when you need it.”

“Yeah..it is..it’s a beautiful scene. It makes you think how small you are, compared to the rest of this city. And how easy it is to forget to appreciate life in general.”

“Yeah..you’re definitely right.”

And for a moment we sat there in silence. Just enjoying each other’s company, as we hear the small noises of the city waking up. Until I only realize what time it was..which interrupted my peace.

7:15 am. Crap. I have work in 45 minutes and I haven’t even made it down this 20 minutes trail.

“I hate to do this, but I gotta go for work.” As I grab my things and get up. Jacob watches me struggle to get up. “You need help?”

“No I’m good!” as I trip over a twig. “Um! It was nice to meet you! And great conversation! Maybe I’ll run into you again?”

He tries to stand up, but I motion to him to sit. “Enjoy the rest of it up here.”

He smiles. “Take it easy. Be careful going down. I hope I run into you again soon Jasmine.”

I bite my lip and wave at him as I walk backwards and then turn around facing the front of the trail. My phone vibrates..

Tristian’s calling.

I silence my phone and put it in my pants pocket. Smiling to myself. I have no regrets in being late to work today and I surely have no regrets in running up this hike this morning. It’s gonna be a good day.

 

 

 

 

Author: alongcameshe

A 20-something year old trying to find the words to express the realest of the real when it comes to her rawest emotions in life. From experiences to life lessons to things she's passionate to, she experiments with her creative side by blogging her moments in life. As along her life came, along came she.

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